32… Another Year, Another Birthday

credit: me; yeah this pretty much sums up how i feel about age haha

credit: me; yeah this pretty much sums up how i feel about age haha

That crazy tagging on my car was done two years ago today for my 30th birthday. I had no idea my friend Tiffiny, her mom and a cousin had showed up in the middle of the night and covered it in that silliness. I got up, got ready to go to work, walked to my car and bam! Holy crap! When did that happen?!?

I’m quite certain that Tiff opted to put on there about the recount not only because 30 is a big birthday but because she knew I was already having reservations and concerns about turning 30. I’d no longer be a 20something and reached a new level of well… something. I still can’t quite put my finger on it just yet… even now that I’ve turned 32 today.

I was already developing a healthy age complex in my late 20s but now that I’m 30 plus, it’s just about cemented in and here to stay, though I’m trying to undo that. It’s difficult because at 32 about 95 percent of my friends are married and/or having kids and here I am still living on less than $15 an hour and live like a college kid really. I always look forward to free stuff (the last few days of my vacation featured mostly free activities – granted that in of itself isn’t necessarily bad). I love my job but I’m not further along in my career one way or another and I’m family-less (unmarried, no kids). It just feels like an odd spot to be in I suppose. I’m getting old with nothing to show for it.

I’ve been told many times, as a means of cheering me up about getting older, that the 30s were the best. So far my 30s have been less than desirable. For my 30th I opted for an entire birthday month because it was a big one and it was fabulous! I had a ton of fun but then since then, it’s not been so great and most of it centers around family stuff; all heartbreaking.

With any luck this year though, I’ll get back on track. I don’t really want to spend my 30s freaking out about my age or feeling old. That seems pretty stupid quite frankly and it certainly doesn’t help my cause given it’s never going to get better. Funny thing age – we only get older, not the other way around. So, why waste time being bummed about it? So I’m trying and hoping that with this month’s theme, which will focus on back to school, that I’ll reign in that bummed out attitude and start liking the age I’ve reached. I’m truly hoping that with 32 that there will be lots of good times and good things happening because it’s time for my 30s to start rocking.

Hopefully I’ll slow down that stupid pace of getting gray hair also. Sheesh. I found out just a week ago or so that I have about six more grays. Ugh.

me at 30...hope i don't look much different haha

me at 30…hope i don’t look much different haha; can you see any gray?

So there I was at 30. I probably should put a new one of me at 32 or almost so we can compare and see if I look that much older or not. Hmm… perhaps not. Anyway, as I said it’s August so it’s “Back to Getting Schooled” which should be a fun theme I hope. This may include getting schooled in not hating getting older. That’s what I’m trying to learn. What are you trying to learn this month? We should all be getting “schooled” in something because the day we stop learning, growing and getting better is the day we die – at least that’s what I think.

So I’m off and running… to lunch, ice cream, movie, dinner the works. Hey, it’s my birthday and I’m going to be happy about it darn it! πŸ™‚

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3 responses to “32… Another Year, Another Birthday

  1. happy birthday πŸ™‚ August is a great month to have a birthday in since the greatest writer known to humanity was also born in August! πŸ˜‰

    I’m not really bummed out about getting older, i suppose the single person would tell me to keep my mouth shut since i married and all, but honestly, i think for me life is a lot about goals; I am so focused on what i’m trying to accomplish that my age is just something in the background πŸ™‚

    • thank you! and yes august is a great month… just turns out that when i was growing up it was a little bit of a bummer too because it was a sign that it was time to get ready to go back to school haha; i think you make a good point about goals. i shouldn’t be so worried about age and im trying not to but it’s a hard one to fix. i should follow suit… just focus on goals and let the rest sort itself out πŸ™‚

      • Goals, goals, goals = Yup, Yup, yup

        Dude, A few years ago I really struggled with depression and being a counselor and all at the time I had access to people with PhD’s that were willing to write me any script i wanted….but I finally worked through it without drugs by merely setting some very clear goals for myself. It has completely changed my life for the better πŸ™‚

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